Wrote 2 years ago...but it still holds true, I suppose.

People often say, \"Write what ya know.\" Well, I\'m writing about being fat, because that is most certainly what I know. First of all, if you\'re a guy, you might as well stop reading now, because you have no idea...OK! I am 14 years old, 5\'1\" and I weigh more than I should, I\'m not one of those 105 pound cheerleaders that pull half an inch of skin off their tiny little bodies and talk about how i MUST lose 5 pounds to fit into my Size zero prom dress. No, I wouldnt have that problem A) I'm not a big fan of prom dresses B) I have never been asked to prom, homecoming, turn-a-bout or any other dance imaginable. To be honest, I havent even danced with a guy that isnt related to me. So my case is probably the worst it could possibly be. To make things even more fun, my best friend in the world is 5\'9\" and weighs 120. Being the supportive gal she is, she constantly reminds me that look arent really that important.  I realize the fact that I\'m just pissing and moaning here, but it seems like it\'s a hell of a lot easier to have self confidence when you have a great body. As my mom says, \"Boys like a girl with self confidence, thats more important than what ya look like\" True, but boys dont like grabbing a whale\'s ass either. I\'ve heard about every fat joke you can possibly imagine. My favorite being \"want some more butter on them rolls?\" I think it was the pranks that were the worst though. Sixth grade, the oh-so-foxy Brock Behme was in my class. He was the guy i would have killed to kiss in the big time kindergarten production of The Nutcracker. (I ended up being a soldier wearing backwards suspenders...) But anyway, I\'d never had a boyfriend...but I\'d never had an eye for anyone but this Brock guy. He finally asked me out in 5th grade and i was sooooooo excited. Of course it was a prank and I didnt find out till 2 weeks later, and was the only person not in on the joke.  It got so bad in 6th grade that i wrote a fake doctors note saying i have a fracture in my left arm...so i had to sit out of PE for 2 weeks.
  I started my first diet when i was 7 years old. I\'m now 14 and about a million pounds heavier...i guess it didnt go over so well.
I\'m going to michigan in a few weeks...there will be a pool there and about 25 guys my age will be there...drooling over all the girls in their swimsuits. But god damn it, I will be there too. And I will sit by the side of the pool in my favorite swimsuit and tell every person who has a problem with me being there to go fuck themselves.  Now wait...didnt i just totally go against my whole being skinny and having self confidence thing? Like i said...i am 14, i am 5\'1\" and i weigh more than I should. Up to this year it's ruined my life, no matter where i am or what im doing, that one thought is always on my mind.  I will not ruin the rest of my life because im fat. Ridiculous. I very well might be the only person on DeviantArt who will read this, but I know I\'m not the only person who can relate. Whether you know how i feel or not...be happy with who you are, and dont let other people push you around until you arent.